I did end up seeing my W in passing last night. She has been upbeat and positive the last few times I've seen her. I'll have to say it's true - being upbeat and positive does work. She is making herself more attractive to me. I guess it works both ways. I was at a point where I started pulling away a bit and her recent attitude is pulling me back in.
Double-header GAL'ing last night. I had my Thursday night Men's group. Another great group meeting. I'm really enjoying this group of guys. When I got home, I took care of some things and hopped on the bike for 26 miles. Yes, that's right. It was dark and it was late. I didn't get started until 11:30pm because of some other things I had to take care of when I got home. However, it was relatively warm for February. It was about 40 degrees when I started.
During Men's group last night, my W texted me about something my S had to do for Cub Scouts. However, she accidently substituted my name instead of his. We had fun with that, jokingly sending a couple of texts back and forth. It was kind of nice, being able to joke around a bit instead of being all serious.
I encountered my W in passing this morning when she dropped my S off for the bus. She was upbeat and positive again.
It seems like I've been getting some small, miniscule positives lately. Not sure what to make of them. Frankly, I'm trying not to make anything of them. If I think about things from the gut level and compare it to last year at this time, it seems like things are 180 degrees opposite. Last year at this time, things on the surface looked pretty good, but my gut was telling me something was wrong. This year, things on the surface look pretty bad - we are separated and my W and I have started some D paperwork but I'm getting better vibes from my W. Oh well, it could be anything. As y'all know, things can one direction or the other in a heartbeat. My game plan is to stay the course and keep trying to be the best JB I can be. Like I've seen here before, when the WAS wants to come back, they're going to make it just about as clear as when they dropped the D bomb. I haven't seen anything even close to that. I still have to want my W to come back, too. I like all my changes and I don't want to give them up.
Enough rambling for now. I should probably get more rest at night.
I was at a point where I started pulling away a bit and her recent attitude is pulling me back in.
When I got home, I took care of some things and hopped on the bike for 26 miles. 
