WHG: And Alice goes down the rabbit hole...

[workinghardguy]

Yes LA... many of her plans to require an external actor. I have to admit it takes all of my strength not to problem-solve for her, but I am resisting. She admitted her back-up plan, should the funding not come through, is that she will have to work a lot of overtime. This would essentially mean she'd have to work pretty much every weekend.

I wanted to say that this isn't necessary. I wanted to point out that the last six months that with what we've been savings/retiring debt we certainly would have enough to pay for her education. That really, the additional housing costs alone would pay most of her tuition.

But I didn't. I just shut up. I simply said that she did her best on the interview and that's all anyone can do. That I was proud of her for trying and going after it, no matter what the outcome. And that if it doesn't happen, that she'll be able to figure out the next steps. And then I went upstairs and left her to herself.

Realized this morning that it's two weeks now until move out. I am taking son to a two-night overnight at a waterpark resort about an hour away the weekend she's moving. I don't want to be anywhere around and I know I will need something to distract me that weekend so I don't dwell on it. But my head keeps running through that when my W leaves for work that Friday that'll be the last time she "lives" in the house. Once we leave for the waterpark I'll come home to an empty house.

And yes, I know, my W hasn't been "living" in our house for a long time now. But my kids have been. And they won't be. And that hurts.