2TP: Good idea about keep in the positives on close contact so I can remind myself when I start to get negative again.

BF: I AM looking forward to being around people who love me. It will be nice to get a hug from someone who genuinely means it.

111: I know the FWB thing is a dangerous road to walk down... I don't want to risk any progress I've already made. You are absolutely right that any attempt at mentioning it or making a move would probably be unwelcomed, and I would be setting myself up for rejection.... can't deal with that! I do like your 'sexy' statement... maybe that could be my final thing I say as I get in the cat to leave for my trip?! That would leave an impression smile

Journal:
Getting myself packed up for my 2 week trip. It's bittersweet: I'm excited to have some fun and see my family, but I don't like the *reason* I'm going.

Is this weird? :: I haven't worn my wedding band since OW was discovered. Mostly because I didn't want H to think that I was still 'holding on' or 'trying'. I wanted him to believe that I'm moving on (it's becoming more true every day.) But now that I'm leaving town, I want to put it back on. I still *feel* married, and I want to represent that- I know a person doesn't need a ring to act married. I've always wanted to wear it, and I feel safe doing it while he won't see... is that wrong of me? I've heard of some people saying that the WAS still wears their rings- I feel like they have a bit more control over expressing their level of 'being married' to the rest of the world- but for the LBS, we are supposed to accept and move on, and if we still wear our rings, isn't that a conflicting message?

Mind ramblings as I pack up my life for two weeks


M-31, H-31
T-9, M-7
S-6, s-20mth
sep 8/1/11
ILYNILWY 11/29/11
Creating separation papers.
Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12
H moves out 1.20.12