You just described the same incident, down to the words from your H that I experienced last fall. I suppose that is one of the reasons why I am having a difficult time right now. Soul searching means being brutally honest with yourself.
I don't have words of wisdom for you. I just want you to know I'm here with a shoulder marked T2!
When you can't make a decision because you are torn between your heart and your head, listen to the half with the brain.
Thanks Pattie, it's always great to know there's someone out there listening...especially when we're bitchin and moanin
I had a good chat with my H shortly after that little vent...
I told him everything I'd said in that post. I let him know that I have absolutely NO intention of ever going backwards, walking on egg shells or any other self destructive thing I did this time last year (and before) when I was obsessed with him and not my own life.
I let him know that if he fostered any confusion over where he really needed and wanted to be that he'd better poop or get off the pot because I have no intention of wasting another day of my life while he hides from any residual demons that he may have.
I'm out of that ugly loop and off that hideous rollercoaster that drains the life out of us. I'm not the broken and shattered woman I was 6 months ago, I don't NEED my H anymore, and if he can't hold up his end of this R entirely, then like Cheney said about Clinton..."the wheel has turned and it's time for HIM to go."
God it feels good to feel safe in yourself again. To feel strong and empowered to put your own sanity and happiness first...and I AIN'T EVER giving that up again for ANYONE. T2
