You just described the same incident, down to the words from your H that I experienced last fall. I suppose that is one of the reasons why I am having a difficult time right now. Soul searching means being brutally honest with yourself.
I don't have words of wisdom for you. I just want you to know I'm here with a shoulder marked T2!
When you can't make a decision because you are torn between your heart and your head, listen to the half with the brain.
