Hi Hope2011, Thank you for your response. I also am here to try my best at saving "me" as there is a lot of mistruth and false portrayals being used right now that really mess with my head. While W covers her tracks with this OM or just shows apathy, I'm labeling as "mean" or "controlling" for wanting time with her or for keeping up effort.
I think I jumped right into the tail end of my marital pattern. It seems like I am close to having to "drop the rope" in order to keep some semblance of sanity.