Learning as I go

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I am not seeing a C because I can't afford it. I have some friends that I see but they usually are working when I have time off.

As for the hospital bills, I am in the process of getting D's bills sent to my address since W apparently will not pay them and just lets them go to collections. I have a good standing with the collections people and the hospital, it's just that this debt was ran up so much and W hid it from me.

As for charity care, I make too much money, but have too much debt so there is no help there. I work with financial counselors who have looked at my finances and said that I need to have more income, because I have basically cut about as much "fat" off my budget as I can. Even when I go out with friends, I don't drink much or the friends are buying the drinks.

Most of my debt is in student loans and I am working my way to getting those forgiven, but it will take 6 to 7 years. If I get a job with the NHSC, it would be paid in 2-3 yrs. but there are no jobs in the area. I already work 2 jobs and I can't work anymore if I want to actually see my D.

As for a gym, I can't afford that right now, but I am trying to work out at home and at times even using free passes that are given from work, when I can.

I am involved in my church about as much as I can be at this time. Basically I am pretty busy except for the few times like the last night when I had time to think about it and I was alone.

I am sorry. I am not making excuses, just explaining the situation. I am trying to do what I can though to meet new people and to afford a gym membership.