Hey tested. I was curious about your stich because we have our professions in common. I read some of your post and you are in a real rollercoaster. Sorry you find yourself here. My sitch is a bit different mine was self induced, mostly.
IMO going out is a good thing. You can always put aside an hour or two of day as worry times or work on me times. But I don't think worrying all day long is healthy for you or D. I have started new habits that are healthy and do them when I feel dispair. Can you find things that you may like and never done before. i.e I hit the bay and look at the ocean while I read post from this board. I has become a weekend routine. i would be careful about the drinking but you know that.
Yes this can happen to anyone. Hang in there
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”