Outside the Scope of This Report

[WenikiTiki]

Thankd Angel for your posts. I was thinking about you just a little bit ago.

I made sure I wasn't home when H got home from work. When I got home he was folding clothes. (I had done laundry, but not folded it, just laid out the stuff that nneded hung up)

I helped him finish and put it away. I went to the kitchen to see about some dinner and he sat in his chair and stared at me intently.

I said: I can read your mind. He said: Really, what am I thinking? I said: You want to tell me something.

And he did. He told me he really wants to go be with OW, when he thinks of being with her it makes him happy. I told him that was funny, because I had been thinking that I was done with him and that I needed to get away from him before it killed me.

He has a plan to cash in his IRA so he can rent a house. And rescue poor, poor OW. He talked to me for over 2 hours. I told him fine, we will get a D. I took off my wedding band and laid it on the little table between out chairs.

I said to him: So then go, and I pointed to the formal living room, and live in the other end of the house. He didn't make a move. I faced away from him and didn't say a word.

Talk about writhing with indecision. He didn't say a word for about 15 minutes. I sang about 10 different songs in my head. And I did not talk first. He finally started talking about what it would mean for he and I too stay together vs. be apart.

He talked about the kids, grandkids, dogs..... And finally he said that he feels like it would be hard to be without me, as I have always beens such a big part of his life. But mind you, he brought OW up every other time.

I did finally get up to use the restroom. And that is when he bailed to go upstairs and think. We covered clearly what it would take for him to be with me. And I have no idea right now what he is thinking.

Actually I am growing weary of the nonsense. it eats up so much of my time.

On a happy note I weighed in today and have lost another pound, down 77 pounds now!