W told me she is done & doesn't love me anymore-P2

[Snowman]

Well my W just picked up my S. I have had him since last Friday evening. My W had a midterm after work so I got him until she was done. She came over and I asked how the test went. She said pretty good. She asked about a FSA card that is not around anymore. I told her about our S's potty training progress while we got our S' shoes on. She said she didn't feel very good and I asked why. She said she had a headache. She has always had headache problems and pretty much gets them everyday, not sure what the deal is with that. They then got in m W's car and I gave my S a hug and kiss goodbye. I won't see him until next Monday, suckey.

I have not heard from my L about updated papers and I'm not in a hurry to do so. My W wants one of our nice LCD TV's which is fine and expected. I told her earlier in the week we would get it to her. I booked a Disneyland trip with my family last night. My S was excited about that and keep saying Disneyland.

I thought today how it was ironic that I was catering to my W's school schedule and how we will always have to deal with planning things for the rest of our lives which makes divorce so silly. I talked to a guy at work about it(I know I'm not suppose to) and he mentioned the same thing when he was having difficulties in his marriage and is why he decided to suck it up and work on his marriage.

I'm sitting here trying to think of all the things my W said way back when the bomb was dropped and my mind just spins but here is what I can piece together:
-Don't like her friends or hang out with them
-Don't appreciate her cooking
-I won't get it and I never will. She claims her counselor said that as well
-Always in the basement
-I think she said something about she is tired of just being a mom when she gets home.
-Something about my family being more important than hers or her not feeling included with my sisters. Don't recall exactly.

There is more but I really can't recall it all. I could type responses to each but I will let others analyze these things and ask me questions first.

I'm learning to find calmness in my life. I have done good at not talking as much about my stitch with those who know about it. I'm working on being the best dad I can be with my son. I have been very cordial with my W and not really fought with her on the D stuff. I'm working to have fun with friends and family. I need to exercise more and probably get out more when I don't have my S but I have improved on that. I trying and learning to find positive in my life. I pray with my S before bed who repeats the words I say so enjoy doing it with him so he can learn. I'm just rambling I guess but this is what I have to say right now.