damn, you are getting good at this. and i agree with NH - no no no on conversations about the relationship.
all these crazy mixed feelings you are experiencing? totally normal. the impulses to go against DB strategies? totally normal. the learning curve where your behaviors are mixed? totally normal, if not better than average on your part.
look at the data when you stay back and don't initiate. look at the data when you do your 180s. it all works, just like physics! and even as all of this is going on, you are working on you, learning you can do positive things even in the most difficult circumstances. learning some grace under pressure.
i would say keep it up and let's see how things go for the next week or so. the thing i find most encouraging is all of the things your H is initiating with you. and most of the time, you've really made hay. you've just had fun and then left it at that.
keep up the GAL stuff and build, build, build. no one can ever take that away from you.
