Your totally right. It is fear that holds me back. I tell my self not to be afraid as i trust myself to be able to cope, no matter what happens! But yet, there seems like there is nothing i can do about it, other than recongnise it for what it is.
I think that over time I will feel more comfortable and trusting with my H, somedays it is just hard to see it. My H has difficulty with the changes i have made for myself. Since we only saw each other once while sep (and that was for a family funeral) he didn't see me grow into these changes. I'm alot more relaxed about certain things than i used to be, more compassionate to others and i tend to let things slide, that i would have jumped all over before. I was pretty uptight about certain things, and now, these things just aren't as important! He makes ASSumptions, but i just don't sweat the small stuff.
I find it amusing that i can still surprise him, cause this way of living is now second nature to me, so i think nothing of it.
Hopefully he will be able to grow as i have, i just wish he'd hurry and catch me up!
I'm glad that someone who has been in my position has come out the other end!
