New trying to DB-Help!

[jlove]

So far today has been pretty good after an awful night. When she got home from work, she barely said 4 words to me before bed and I was having anxiety attacks all thru the night and hardly slept. I was crawling out of my skin in bed all night, but didn't say a peep. She slept soundly thru the night and am as I got the kids ready for school and then couldn't believe she never heard youngest son thruout the night when I was up with him. She is saying "we" and talking of the future together some today and I am in my 180 not addressing any M issues or chasing, but I'm still so confused and think she's a stranger to me in many ways right now and I cannot fathom what she's really thinking. She seems to be trying to build up some level of trust in me by talking about texts and emails/FB posting from friends that's she's reading, but after being let down by EA and finding them talking and messaging on FB last week, I don't have a clue about that stuff. I am beginning to come to terms with the fact that I cannot control her contacting OM, and this is one of the hardest things I'm dealing with, as if she would stop, I thin the fog may lift slowly and help us. All I can focus on now is me I guess and that's hard when you've been living with someone for 22 years! Like many of you here know. All for now, time to help with homework.