If the D goes through it's not over. I've seen/heard of a number of WASs that, for whatever reason, felt they needed to D or something similiar before they could reconnect with their LBS.
Just keep doin' what you're doin'. Sounds like you're keeping well and dealing with this in a healthy manner. I get the sense that you're now actually getting comfortable with keeping yourself happy and not just doing things to win W back.
Note here: The WAS tends to have a 'radar' for this kind of thing. If they get a sense that you are just doing things/changes to win them back they will most often feel they are being 'tricked' into coming back. Usually sends them back into their tunnel for a while (groan...)
Took a while for me but I finally 'got it.' Sure, if you make a mistake here and there, and they do happen, remember to pick yourself back up and continue on. Try your best not to waste any energy beating yourself up with, 'what if I had done this or that?' or 'I should've done...'
Coyote
I haven't posted much in the last seven years. I've been a lurker. Just lookin' to put back all the good help I've gotten...