that was a tough conversation. Sometimes if feels as though things are getting better and than the roller coaster dips down.. Again!
I think that's why i'm trying to focus on the LRT and really letting go. So hard! But I became so attached to H and his actions affected me so much that I was really losing myself. Sigh. Go back and read the lyrics to that song I posted. .
My H is only here every second weekend now. This past weekend was the first for him away from the kids and I think it made him realize how painful it really was for me all those other weekends. Plus since I am not engaging him in conversation and being all buddy buddy.. Maybe some of the reality of D has occured to him. Ah.. But one can only hope!
Focus on you now. Create a beautiful life for you and your kids. H will do and say what he wants. That doesn't mean we don't have hope.. I think it just means it no longer inhibits us.
You are a beautiful, smart, loving woman. Believe that because I certainly believe you are! Be strong! Be bold! You are going to come out on top. And we will all be right here with you cheering you on.
((((( ))))) Vegas??
sometimes i wonder if I'm making any sense. I often post from phone and can't really see what I've written. Lol. I'm really quite eloquent normally. Hahahaha
Me:38.. H:33. Two beautiful kids S:6 D:3 M:8.. together for 11. Bomb dropped:10/17/11 Separated:11/07/11