I fully understand your requirements, if my H were ever to want to come back, it would have to be on the basis of a new set of ground rules, on both sides. No more letting things slide till there's a huge mess to clear up.
Did I remember you writing that your earlier threads were lost or that you didn't link to them as you were a phoenix rising from the ashes and didn't want to be reminded of those times?
It would be useful to read some of those early posts just to get an idea of how far you have come, and give some of us more hope that things can turn around.
Livnlearn
"The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates