I can't imagine how challenging it is to recalibrate your concept of marriage. You do have the right to claim your own happiness, and to define what a fulfilling life would look like for *you*... perhaps it's different now than 10 years ago because of new experiences. Whatever conclusion you come to, it will not have been without challenges, heartache and LOTS of patience.
If only your W could know how much mental and physical energy you are putting into supporting her on this scary journey for her... she is blessed.
You are a living example of unconditional love.
Purg - thanks. I think she does see how much I'm putting into this but doesn't often validate it because she may worry about creating a sitch she isn't yet ready for, and there's the guilt factor too. I don't think she's in a place yet where she can offer comfort to me. In fact she has been very clear that she can barely handle her own crisis right now, never mind the needs of others.
Being so close to her through this is a double edged sword. On one hand it offers hope that we are together still and can maybe create a better way of doing that. On the other hand I have a front row seat to her stress and I catch myself thinking often of what a crisis free M or relationship could be like. I'm just tired as I'm sure all of us here are>
