It is good to hear from my internet friends. I had a bit of a backslide this morning, but mostly it was stuff that needed clarified from his many hours of talking the other day.
From what my H says he feels like he is stuck with me, as OW is done with him. When he says that sort of thing it really hurts me. He was telling me we never had sex much and that she excited him a lot and that he was excited by her. More than he had been with me.
I know they rewrite history, but that was just hurtful and a big fat lie. It happens to be that I always grab a washcloth and clean up after sex. And I'm the one who does the laundry. I was in the habit of counting washcloths and I know for a FACT that we made love 2-3 times a week for many years.
I called him on it. I know his feeling are his feelings. But to lie and act like I wasn't meeting his needs and that we NEVER had sex is unbelievable. We never have sex now, but that is his decision and his doing.
The amount of weight I have lost is amazing. But my H never stopped having sex with me when I was heavy. I brought this up. He then squacked out: "I have my needs and wants!" And I told him that so do I. I'm starting to feel he is threatned by my looking so much better.
He keeps telling me how sad he is. And folks on here tell me he is going to be grieving. I don't think he will really be grieving 'til she leaves the island. And the current story is that her lawyer told her she can't leave the island until her court date. And that her H is withholding all money. And she is about to be homeless and she "broke up" with my H because he hasn't ran out and rented a place for them.
So my H said to me that OW thinks he really wants to stay with me because he hasn't done anything for her. And I kind of feel that way. But he is also making me feel ugly and unnatractive.
His other complaints are kind of funny too. He is grumbling because I have put so many miles on my new car. We bought it in May. I have almost 12K miles on it.
I shared it with my one son for 3 months. Loaned it to a relative for a week and she put a thousand miles on it! And I workout 7 times a week, which is a 16 mile round trip. Anyway, just venting. I am trying to not let his MLC crazy make me crazy.
When will I know we are ready for Retrouvaille? ;-)
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
