2004 The Year of T2

[love_endures4ever]

Hi T2,

Been thinking about you and I miss our chats!

Cathy

[imalright]

This is for you T2!

"You'll think of me"
by Keith Urban

(Darrell Brown/Ty Lacy/Dennis Matkosky)

I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing left to say, but

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me

I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been
So

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and all your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cap and leave my sweater
'Cause we got nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me, yeah

And you're gonna think of me
Oh someday baby, someday

[MAL]

Hi T2.

I am working on an email distribution list for the Sandbridge trip. Could you send me an email to confirm that you are coming? That will also give me your email address. [e-mail]

Thank you!

[Trying24now]

Wow, since Mal dug this thread up from somewhere in cyber space I figured I'd take the time to do a little update about MY sitch.

H has been home for 5 months and although there have been no negative instances (acts) on his part, I find myself in a whole new phase of this process. One that has been as emotionally taxing on me at times as the one right after the bomb.

This phase has me scratching and clawing my way through the ULTIMATE question that WE'LL all have to face sooner or later and that is: IS THIS what I REALLY WANT?

Although on my Hs part, he's trying in his own way to meet all the challenges and jump over all the hurdles that I throw out there in front of him, I'm now trying to sort through the rubble of the past two years to see what's really there worth saving FOR ME.

As I have come through the guantlet, I've discovered a great deal of innner strength, my future is becoming less fuzzy and I'm beginning to see a clearer and healthier path for myself.

If someone had asked me in the summer of 2002 if I'd ever have any semblence of a life again...I would have said NO. But today, having gone through all the hell and heartache of having been betrayed....I DO see the opportunity for a healthy, happy life...just ahead.

The dynamics of my sitch have changed. I stopped being afraid of losing my H and my M and realized that what I was most afraid of, was LOSING ME and who I was because of all of this.

I have regained my footing and I have taken control of this sitch. It is NOT me who stands to lose if this M falls apart, it is my H. I have always been and will continue to be an honorable person. HE will have to prove to me that HE is capable of doing the same, and he knows it.

There are no more eggshells on the floor, the elephant (the A) in the living room is not hiding under the rug so that my H doesn't have to face it.

I say and do what ever I need to live through the moment, the trigger, the pain whatever and I do it with the acceptance that if my H can't deal with it, then HE needs to go.

I decided months ago that I will not cower another day in fear of his leaving because I came to realize that NO ONE and I mean absolutely NO ONE will ever have the right to hold that much power in my life that they can steal away all my happiness and sense of self EVER AGAIN.

I am an intellegent, accomplished woman. I have been as good a wife as my H could have ever hoped for and because of his inability to be honest with himself and with me, he took the chance of destroying everything we had.

My H knows that I am moving forward. He knows that if he doesn't do the work to catch up he will be left in the dust of my re-emergence, the choice is his to make, because either way, I WILL SURVIVE, MY personal future is very, very bright with OR without him.
T2

[MovinOn]

T2,
I'm glad you posted. You said very clearly exactly what I have gone through these last 6 weeks. I need to remember that I am a strong, bright, fun woman. You are so right that H has the most to lose. I will survive, he may not.
Thank you!!!

[hoping]

Wow..T2..you have summed up alot of feelings for alot of us..

H and I are going to go slow about actually moving back togeter..I am having the fun that I have missed for a long time..going to his place..jsut being loved again..he knows he is the one that made the mistake..and he is doing a great job of showing me recomittment to this m.

You have been a tower of strength and great inspiration.

Sue

[cruiserrg]

T2,

Thanks so much for the post, your feelings give me renewed strength.

I am not to the point you are yet, but my fear of losing her now has changed to a fear of not wanting her the way she is right now. My W is not yet to where you H is realizing that she needs to catch up. I hope she understands that some day. I am confiedent in myself and know I don't NEED her in my life, but I do want her there. I just struggle every day with the fear that she has become someone I may not want to be with.

Its still very soon since her coming home and I am hoping things will get better along the way and that we finally get to the point where she understands I can't be the only one putting effort into this.

Thank you so much for all the insight and inspiration in your replies to my thread. I personally have helped be deal with the initial struggle of my W coming home. I still struggle with this everyday, but I am in a better place within my self in large part for your words of wisdom.

Thank you so much {{{{{t2}}}}}

[love_endures4ever]

T2

As I have come through the guantlet, I've discovered a great deal of innner strength, my future is becoming less fuzzy and I'm beginning to see a clearer and healthier path for myself.

You're awesome, can hear everything you're saying..thanks for putting it all here. I can just copy it over to my thread!

Cathy

[talitsa]

Hey T2, it sounds like you are doing great. You H obviosly "gets it" but doesn't always know what to do. He's trying and responding--that's all good.

[imalright]

T2,
I think it is great that you are posting again! All I can say is; it's about time! LOL

It helps to lay out the bad or the good, and the support here is wonderful!

Your buddy!
Deb