keep the road home open (check) detach & GAL (check) provide quiet support (check) see where I need to improve and do it (check)
Okay, I can honestly feel successful with the checklist. My W has the road home open and clear, has full support and love, and she's on the road looking around.
It was a hell of a journey to get here and I thank god that we made it to this point. Then why do I feel so strange, so empty, so outside my life looking in?
25 asked me what will I do if she never makes it back, or doesn't want to make it back. Its a lot to dwell on.
Can I live a M that's at a 50/50 point for ever? Is my realizing that I want passion and a full relationship selfish at this point? I dont have answers at this point. I think its so scary because of the realization of control, maybe. I can control whether or not I continue to live mostly alone like this. I cannot control where my W goes with this or what she figures out for herself. Because I know that I detach, and I am fulfilled with who I am and my life's activities. I know I'm responsible for my happiness.
