25 I was actually sad that you weren't there for my workshop! It wouldn't have changed my experience and I still would have been just as open to get my full experience.
I hope to be able to serve on a team in the future too.
Yes please do call Eric. He is aware of the situation and will definitely give you my contact info. I originally told Joanne and ended up speaking with Eric and Barb as well, about how I can to find them but not knowing your real name. I know that he will help us to connect. I will be seeing everyone on Sunday, thankfully.
25 is right, I can't really get into specifics. It truly is an experience and different for each person. Outside of the Q&A on the site, there are no firm answers that will be helpful. I highly recommend it!
So going in, I didn't tell my H what it was specifically. I was thankful that he didn't press because I wanted to be in the right frame of mind.
When I got home he asked more questions. I showed him the site and told him that I would answer any questions that I could.
He said it looked great and he was happy that it made me happy. But at one point he felt like it may have been all about him, and an H bashing session. I tried to explain that this was all about me and my growth and happiness, and not focused on him.
He said "you are different since you came back from there". He said it negatively, but inside I smiled. I replied "you are right, I am different"
In the course of the conversation, I said "we have been dancing around each other for months, pretending on the surface to keep from arguing but I can't keep going like this. I need MC and need you to make your decision"
He was angry at first and said "you are making an ultimatum" and I nodded. This may be anti DB but I am sick of swimming upstream with no results or happiness.
At the end of the conversation he said "fine we will go to MC and find a way to do this or end it"
We had some alone time and later he asked me to join him, offered an apology and peace offering. He was affectionate, arm around me with no talking.
He briefly mentioned MC again and I said "if you prefer, you can attend EE in place of MC for now because I think you really would benefit from it. But its your call"
He didn't say yes but didn't say no.
This morning he was affectionate again, just rubbed my arm and hair.
I think that conversation was scary but needed to happen. I followed up with "I really do want my marriage and hope that MC is going to help with that" Hearing him say "work it out or end it" was nothing new to me but hard to hear.
What I have learned is, no matter what happens I am strong, resilient and I will be ok. I have a very strong support system in place now and I feel like I will make it to the other side, no matter what that may be.
So that is where I am today....one step at a time.
