It's coming up on 2 weeks since we last ML. I will not give in. I will not give in. I will not give in...
It's very difficult! I'm relieved that the new boundaries make it hard for that opportunity to even arise. Before it was too easy, with him coming into the house and lingering.
It's a physical ache that I feel for him I want to kiss and hold him. I know he feels the same way about me. I hope not letting him eat his cake anymore will cause him to snap out of it even further. The last time we really talked (yesterday morning when he came to get the kids), he brought up our amazing chemistry and said we didn't tap into it as much as we should have while we were together. He's realizing more and more how different things would be simply because of MY changes. He just has to make his own now. I'm still living my life as though he's not coming back.
I'm so ... proud of you if I can say that about a stranger. You're doing fantastic! And that chemistry is not going *anywhere*!! This distance you're creating is feeding that chemistry and making it even more pronounced. It's just what the DR ordered. Good for you chiquita!!!
I want to kiss and hold him. I know he feels the same way about me. I hope not letting him eat his cake anymore will cause him to snap out of it even further. The last time we really talked (yesterday morning when he came to get the kids), he brought up our amazing chemistry and said we didn't tap into it as much as we should have while we were together. He's realizing more and more how different things would be simply because of MY changes. He just has to make his own now. I'm still living my life as though he's not coming back. 