Feeling like I am changing

[25yearsmlc]

well dang, if ya'll are going I may as well go back and do "Team" again...

but then I think, "nah, they need to go and get the full "anonymous" dealio".

What do you think Autumn?

I went and my sil (whom I was/am close to) did Team, but she told me for a few of the exercises, that she'd be stepping out or doing dinner, so I could feel zero inhibitions, etc.

I knew she wanted me to be comfortable about ANYTHING - including family issues, and on the chance that I might be inhibited, she removed herself as an obstacle.

There were a few minutes I felt better about her stepping out, but in general, I really loved having someone there who knew me and had done it and thought I'd get something out of it...I trusted her and she was SO right... So I was glad when she stepped back into the room. And I have not, in 20 years, heard someone reveal something inappropriate about another person.

It's nice when people recognize the value of keeping their commitments and are not just whining about the "Costs" and hassles of it.

so, what's your take on it Autumn? Were you worried someone from DB (moi??)
was there, or anything like that? Would you have been as comfy with a semi friend from the virtual world?

When I went as a participant, for ME, it was the safest place to "get it all out" that I ever felt. And someone there knew me, but like I said, I trusted her --enough to spend money we did not then have, to go and get my head screwed on a bit straighter.

Autumn, I can call Eric if you want, and I can your # from him or visa versa. Would love to hear more about the experiences in a way that's comfortable and appropriate.

Peeps, understand that b/c it's "experiential" (as opposed to lectures, readings, etc) Autumn can't go on & on about it specifically, or tell you everything (But don't worry. It's not a weirdo cult.


Retrovaille also suggests we not share details of our experience with others for similar reasons.


And like Retrovaille, which I also attended --some of it has to "hit you for the first time THERE" so you can't BS yourself with a "nice sounding" answer.

I used to internally rehearse my answers for mc. I didn't see anything wrong or unhealthy about it. Thought I was preparing...But I had no idea what I was also repressing.

So, hence the approach.

Gosh I'm glad you went!

xoxo