WHG: Chasing that rabbit with the pocketwatch

[workinghardguy]

@ GM and LA... it's the best thing to watch! It's so damn cute... they're so serious and focused

@Mach... I absolutely took the metaphor of my S's effort and internalized it. No matter what he didn't quit. And at the end of the tournament all the little kids got a medal, no matter how they did. My S decided that he got a medal "because I was so brave". It's all about getting up off the mat, no matter how many times you go down and how hopeless it may look. You only lose when you refuse to get up off the mat.

Easy on the guilt....

I know... Ironically enough it wasn't intended to trigger guilt. I don't want to post the whole text convo, but essentially I was trying to say that I hadn't told S that she was or wasn't coming. So he wasn't going to be heartbroken because he was counting on her and now she wasn't coming. But that's not how it came off entirely I don't think.

A short journal update... last night W asked me if I would write up the document for the court petitioning for more CS from her XH. I politely told her I had a bunch of things I had to get done for some of my GAL stuff and didn't have the time. She ended up writing it herself into the wee hours this morning. Then emailed it to me with a nice note asking that if I had the time she would really appreciate a second set of eyes and acknowledging that she would understand if I didn't want to help. I'll review it... the increased income is good for her and good for the kids.

The last few days have felt like way before things started to fall apart around here. My W has been so open and communicative with me. It's been hard to find a way to try and not communicate too much with her, yet not seem like angry/butthurt guy. It's a weird line to have to walk.

One thing I'm concerned about though is that W tonight told me she was weaning herself off of her AD Rx. She's been on Wellbutrin since last August. Ostensibly she started taking it to quit smoking. She also took it to stabilize her mood and help her with her depression. Now she's choosing to stop it. I don't know why and didn't ask... it just came in a short convo as she was leaving the house. I can't fathom why now of all times she would choose to change her med routine and an AD of all things.

So I'm worried about that. I know I can't control it or anything... and she'll have to deal, but my experience is that we all get to deal with it at the same time. I've never felt Wellbutrin was the right AD... but it's better than nothing. Guess we'll see how that comes out...