Kinda of hitting the "blue" wall tonight. Last night with my S and won't have him back till Sunday....possibly later because of work travel. I miss him already - we had such a good time this weekend.....dinner with old friends.....got his first haircut with daddy. It's so hard to be without him. I picked him up tonight and he was eating a cookie - I strapped him in and asked if I could have a bite. He smiled real big and held it up to my mouth. Small thing, but kind of touching all at the same time. I know he is loved and in good hands with my W, but still I miss those little smiles, giggles and laughs.
I hope I don't have to live like this for the rest of my life. I hope W and I can get this worked out. Missing her and missing him is a weight on my soul that I can barely lift. Tough night tonight.
