I think I am ready to "let him go". He's so set on finding happiness when he moves out, and I think he needs to see that grass is not greener on the other side.
I was making dinner when H came home and he laughed when he came into the kitchen. He said he felt like fish tacos today and that is what I was making. Who says we don't think alike? We are still able to finish each other's sentences and think about the same thing at the exact same moment. He doesn't say we do anymore, but tonight proved that we do!
I'm staying out of H's way for the rest of the night. S4 and I played together, then went to color and listen to music in his room. At one point S4 said "it's nice to spend time together without the mad man around". I was shocked and asked who the mad man was, and he said it was daddy. H really doesn't show interest in S4 other than to yell at him, and S4 can sense it and it's taking a toll on him. S4 seems to be more worried about upsetting me than ever before. Even if I scold him for doing something, his face shows concern and he asks "do you still love me?" It breaks my heart that I have reassure him that I will always love him, no matter what and even if I'm not happy at him about something.
