i really understand how hard and confusing it is to feel discarded. yet - years later and out of the emotional trenches - i clearly see that at the end of the day i am responsible for how i feel about myself. and if i am so vulnerable to the way just one other person feels about me, its a major wake up call that i need to do things to build myself, or GAL as they say here.
here is what i learned canguy: i can build myself in utterly the worst of circumstances as long as i know where i want to go and can break the steps down into small enough pieces. and believe me, i had to learn to break things down into tiny, ridiculously small steps on the hardest days. but it worked. at the end of those days i could still say i took those tiny steps. and they kept adding up. and yours will, too. and little by little, bit by bit, you regain your pride and self-respect. and then something really cool happens: you realize that all this pain has truly helped you transform yourself to a higher level. and you are going to get there.
if you are willing to, i will try to help you learn to do this. if so, please consider this question: if you woke up tomorrow, and a miracle had occurred, and everything in your life was exactly the way you wanted it to be, what would that look like?
