Wife Left Part 3

[CO1978]

Thank you everyone for your input.

Anger is an emotion that is very hard to understand. As I said I am not completely sure what causes it and I know I can't always control it.

25 yes I am a guard at a correctional facility (hence the CO in CO1978 for Correctional Officer)

It is a difficult job to go home from and have a "normal" day. I really wish I had quit my job a while back when my W first suggested it. It was hard to because of the money and benefits. Its not easy to find a good paying job with great benefits and job security these days.

I am coping better at work now, IC sessions have really helped with that.

Finding someone who has a good marriage is not an easy task (definatly not going to find a co-worker), but I will look.

Mach1 I haven't talked much about the transitioning, but I really should ask about it next time I go. I have been out of the Military now for almost 8 years, and never thought it had THAT much effect on my life.

About a month ago my wife asked me (after a talk with her boss) when I got home from Iraq what kind of counseling/training did I receive to cope with what I went through over there.

[I was in Iraq with the initial assault from March 2003 thru October 2003, the rest of my unit came home in March 2004]

I told her, because I came home separate from my unit, I did not receive any kind of counseling. She said her boss said that was probably the case.

I never thought I needed any help with these issues, until my W pointed out that when I drank (and was really drunk) I talked about things that happened over there, and it was the only time I really talked about it.

She also said sometimes I talked/got loud in my sleep about things she thought may have been related.

These are things I never realized until she told me a month ago.

By the way, I am now on Ambien to help me sleep. The first night I took it, it had no effect, but it has gradually gotten better and I am actually sleeping now.