But you have NOT done that in a way that shows love for her, til you sent the note.
So in your case with things the way they are, I'd worry less about pursuing and more about regretting the mistakes made by not DBing.
Not to hammer it painfully to you, just saying that your anger and punitive ways are most of what she has seen since the bomb.
So how does pursuing now, hurt you? What have you got to lose at this point?
At least if she knows you really are a changed man she MIGHT reconsider down the road when the good times you surely must have once had, can resurface in her.
(BTW I think you are only beginning the process, to be honest.)
You have only started to recognize how controlling and petulant your behavior can come across--I mean no offense by that. Just how many of your interactions have struck ME that way, and therefore may have hit her the same way.
Just my .02
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
