Informally separated from WAW, but DBing my best

[AlwaysTrying]

Hey AT, I just caught up on your thread. I wish I had a cheerleader, too.

I believe in you, labug. You're a great person.

I'm going to look into the mindfulness book. I was meditating pretty consistently and then for some reason stopped around the holidays. My depression is much improved, in fact I would go so far as to say I'm not depressed but I am very sad sometimes. In a lot of ways I'm better than I've ever been but it's always good to have lots of tools in the toolbox.

When it comes to depression, it's best to have every possible defense. I could be doing better there. I know that going to bed early is a lot better for me than getting sleep deprived, but when I come home to my empty room with its empty bed and I start to miss my kids, and my wife, and... all my *stuff*, I have trouble getting to sleep.

I'd consider giving her codependent no more to read, but I'd really rather have her in a mode of thinking of ways to improve our relationship, not escape it.

I don't understand this sentence. Could you explain a bit more?

OK, I've never read the book. I just worry that it is more about leaving negative relationships behind more than building a better one. Maybe that is an unfounded fear.

I sometimes think I should have gone on antidepressants 2 years ago, but I didn't. I was making the best decisions I could at the time. I can't go back and change that, I have to move forward.

So, I wouldn't do it the way I had done it before... We can't change that. But how do we prove that we'll make better decisions in the future?