The word of the day: DETACH.

H didn't stay here last night. I know I'm not supposed to have expectations, but after the weekend surprises, I almost expected to see him at the table this morning. I'm surprised I'm not more upset (maybe I am a little detached) disappointed is better fitting.

H only called this morning to ask when I would be getting my W-2 and to send him a copy of our Sep. papers.... so I guess he's detached himself from this weekend. I really want to play stupid and tell him I can't find the papers.... but what's the point of avoiding it- it's not going to delay the inevitable.

Is it bad of me to want to make sure the house is in 'perfect' shape before I leave for 2 weeks [ie: laundry put away, bathrooms clean, kitchen clean...]?? H has always been critical of my 'inability as a housewife' (even when I was working full time), so I kinda want to make sure he has no reason to complain, and at the same time, make him realize ALL the stuff that I do for the family in a weeks time.... I know, I know- doing anything with the hope of a reaction from him is not the right thing to do.... but it also makes me feel good to know that I take good care of my family- and keeping the house clean is part of that.

GAL today consists of cleaning the floors, laundry, putting things together for my trip and hopefully going to the park if the weather cooperates.


M-31, H-31
T-9, M-7
S-6, s-20mth
sep 8/1/11
ILYNILWY 11/29/11
Creating separation papers.
Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12
H moves out 1.20.12