W told me she is done & doesn't love me anymore-P2

[Snowman]

I will consider going to a MC for myself although it is terribly expensive but probably worth it for me. I will ponder this.

Yes, I need to continue to detach. I agree.

I knew you would harp on me for saying stuff about the costume and alcohol, I could almost picture you writing what you did in my head like a subconscious of sorts .

No I didn't think she would all the sudden change her mind, it was my foolish natural tendency that got the better of me. I know I have a control issue and I don't deny it but I was not asking her the question to control her. How did you get what I said as discussing it with her family, I didn't discuss it with her family. I just restated what my W said.

I will admit I expect the worst because that's what I have got. I have prepared for the worst but I'm also getting the worst. I will work on stopping my bad assumptions.

I will get back to you on the issues she told me long ago, I promise. Me acting miserable was not one of them, the opposite, she was miserable according to her. At the beginning I didn't use the information properly and I know this but things were said about every aspect of life like I never did anything right so its hard to believe that everything that was said was true.

I'm not sure she was happy with our morals that we follow per our religion and ourselves. She even has said she doesn't want to stay together because our religion says so which I never mentioned to her. The attitude question is rhetorical and we both know the answer.

Actually I know her brothers and father quite well. The pretense of tolerance is because I feel that I would have to tolerate it if we got back together, sorry.

Man, I just helped my W move her stuff who is divorcing me and I feel pummeled here. I'm honest in my feelings and words here with you so I guess I deserve it as you are honest with me. Thanks.