Separation, Moved back in, still ILYBNILWY

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Thanks again, KD. It's really nice to have encouragement at a time like this.

After Friday's interaction being so tense, I've been feeling a bit pensive. She had her best friend over last night, and I was getting weird vibes off of her (the friend). While I know MIL isn't badmouthing me, I can't shake this feeling that the friend may be encouraging her to leave me. I know I can't do anything about that, but it really made me feel awful to have her there. I was nice to her, of course, but it felt so forced and unnatural. The worst part is her friend is the W of my best friend. I've known them both longer than I've known my W.

I get up around 5 on days that I work, the house is usually dark and quiet. This morning, W was up, looked like she hadn't been sleeping well. Told me she'd had a nightmare about her mother, and S had been tossing and turning (still sick). Her stomach was also pretty upset. I told her I was sorry that she'd had an awful night, and left feeling pretty lousy, having seen her feeling so bad. Really wish I'd have been able to do more, but I'm just so limited right now. Ugh.