RO: I have had moments of 'sitting in the corner rocking myself'... It was joined by eating a WHOLE hershey pie alone- not my shining moment Once I figure out the magic Detachment formula- I will send it out to everyone on here!!
Ces- thanks for the 'guys perspective'. I had a momentary pause and thought that I shouldn't do these things anymore because they made him uncomfortable (that's how I interpreted his questions).. but then I realized: I HAVE been doing these things because it's what makes me feel good and this IS the new me.
The rest of the day was uneventful.... but H did stay at the house until 4:00. We played with the baby a little, but mostly he sat on the couch and read a book. [normally, I would have been upset that he wasn't 'involved', but today it didn't bother me because I was having fun with the baby... maybe I'm getting used to this detaching thing?]
H saw me prepping stuff for dinner and making brownies (his fav), but I didn't ask if he was staying for dinner because I was afraid it would make him uncomfortable. He packed up his lunch for tomorrow and left.
I would love to know where he's going so late in the day, who he's going to see and why he was here all day, but couldn't stay for a few more hours for dinner and bedtime..... things I will never know the answer to (and you know what??) I'm not dwelling!! I'm ok not knowing!! This is the strangest feeling ever!!
I'm still sad that he left. I'm still upset that I found OWs tupperware with left over breakfast food in the back of his truck (yes, I know it's hers because I bought them for her when she was broke :/)-breakfast food?! Her house is 30 minutes in the opposite direction of his drive to work. I wish he would have interacted with me more in the house, I wish I could have found the magic words to inspire him to stay..... but all of these I can put down and go on with my night with the boys
Purg might be on the verge of detachment!!
M-31, H-31 T-9, M-7 S-6, s-20mth sep 8/1/11 ILYNILWY 11/29/11 Creating separation papers. Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12 H moves out 1.20.12