Together since we were 15...Part 3

[Jenna333]

He probably shouldn't be making such comments about my appearance, huh? It is a dramatic change from when we were together, though. Even if he didn't verbally say anything, his staring says it all for him, LOL. It does get on my nerves in a way, though. I told him, "This would probably be easier for you if you didn't like the way that I look so much." He said, "No, I've always thought you were gorgeous. I see YOU as a person when I look at you." I probably shouldn't have said it, but I said, "You weren't sad to leave me." He said he was, but he was just so fed up and numb. I was fed up, too, but of course I wasn't in the right frame of mind to focus on that at the time.

He brought up a bunch of good memories from our time together. When Lili was a baby and we'd go to the park, put down a blanket, bring a picnic and read books together. When we'd get the big tubs of popcorn from Blockbuster and watch movies together. He teared up while saying that he could always bring up any topic with me and I would 'get it' and would never make him feel bad/weird for bringing it up (he can be quite random).

I do see the beginnings of change in him. He isn't convincing himself that all of our good times were tainted anymore.

I just need to DETACH and not focus on it. It's incredibly hard.

Well, I just made myself some popcorn (yeah, had it on the mind after he brought it up) and I'm going to go do homework/study and put The Time Machine on