H called me before church this morning. Quick chat about him visiting family before he leaves.
One of the ladies at church asked me where H was. I told her he was out of town, and to please pray for him. She then tells me she was thinking about him last week and she asked if we were still together. And I lost it. She hugged me and said a quick prayer. She said she thought something was going on. I did eventually pull myself together, but man what a way to start Sunday service!
My Sissie left after church. All alone again. Good and bad. Now I have plenty of time to think about my dismal life with no distractions. YAY ME! :-(
So...I have a dilemma. H is currently sleeping on the couch. Since my sister was coming, he moved his stuff out of the living room, and I moved his pillows back to our bed to "keep up appearances". My question is should I move his pillows and blankets back to the living room? I'm trying to not manipulate the situation, but I am thinking it would not be "keeping the road home smooth" if his bed is literally already made in the living room when he gets home. I also know that if he removes his pillows and blankets from our room on purpose, it will hurt me.
Any ideas?
Still trying to detach, but having a real hard time. My head is telling me that by detaching, I am leaving to door even wide open for the OW. I know this is not necessarily true. Need to find the balance to detach, but not seem uninterested. I keep thinking how is he going to notice my changes if she's calling and emailing all the time. Not doing too good at this...even with GAL activities. *sigh*
