Four Weeks Till D-Day

[25yearsmlc]

Oh and 25, I am not religious. I wish I was as faith would probably help a lot right now, but I can't be a fairweather worshiper.

YES it does and can and will help....but fyi, I talk about God here more than anywhere else...

Guess I'm more a "storm weather worshipper"- as I often forget to do the gratitude of attitude when things are good.

But when things go to hell, I'm leaning on HIM big time.

He doesn't seem to mind. (OMG--Maybe he's a doormat for me?? Or I'm a cake eater!?? And a WAS who does "touch and go's" w/ the Big Guy.....whatevs)...

He gets that we're flawed, but here's the deal.

for me, saying "He KNOWS me...And he loves me Anyhow"...

means that he accepts me as I am...warts and all. I need that...it helps me a lot.

The essence of YOU, the woman you were before you met your SO,

is still there. Underneath the pain and regret and anger and FEAR...is that same

joyful spirit and loving approach to life in you-it is hurt but it's alive...and that's who God knows you to be and who you really are.

I hope you will find a "faith" in something/someone greater or stronger or wiser than you feel right now &

reach out, and lean on it/them.

If you are open to it, there's a book called "Blue Like Jazz" (author-Doug Miller I think) that strengthened my faith when it was really ebbing.

It has a lot of essays that are entertaining & thought provoking, so you don't have a dense text book or huge treatise.

He's also funny, which is huge to me AND darn hard to be when you're talking about faith and ethics today.


No I didn't agree with all of his positions

but he got me to see God in a new way that felt...idk, more comfortable, friendly & modern, I suppose.

Hope I don't sound too trendy with that.

Anyhow, we're all sending you good stuff. And yes, -prayers too! Can't hurt and

according to my daughter, at age 9, if you have not been praying lately, then "you get extra noticed up there when you do"....

((( )))