Hi jlove. Welcome to the forum which is the best, worst place to be.

Thanks for being patient while waiting for your thread to be picked up and responded to. While you are getting started, it may take a while to get off moderation, so DO keep journaling.

Be patient, this work is a marathon, not a sprint. And it does get easier and it does get better... DBing works to at least give us a better future, even if our M's don't survive.