Btw, when I think about where this might be going with SDA Lady I do get a bit scared! See I'm not on a complete endorphin rush here. I've been alone for a long time and so has she. I'm used to doing what I want when I want and not having to consider the needs of a woman. I don't have to wonder "what do I get her for Valentines's Day" or "is she mad at me?" or "will I get any tonight" (that's a no brainer these days!). It's a strange feeling when a lady starts to come into your life. We have to spend time together, call each other, listen to each others problems...yeah. She seems like such a sweety and she's certainly into me. It seems in love women either aren't interested or are captivated by me, there's no middle ground. They either buy my schtick lock stock and barrel or they don't. SDA Lady and I like to flirt with each other in humorous ways and it's fun. I do feel anxious sometimes but I feel that going into any romantic R, always have. Being alone is easy, being with someone is harder. I remember when STBX and I first started dating, one night she said to me "how come you don't phone me every night?" and my response was "if you want me to, I can" I had no concept of the need for connection. Hey, I call you once a week what else do you need. I think I've grown a little since then! I'm hoping anyway. OMG, I might actually have to think about Valentines Day this year...there's a frightening thought. What do you get someone you've dated a couple of weeks? Hey, maybe we'll have crashed by then and I won't have to worry about it! I remember the first Valentine's Day after STBX and I got married...I bought her cook books. What a turd lol!
