well QOS, i set this boundary before, i need to stay confident enough in my decision to see it through. i drop the kids at grandmas house yesterday and my mom called w to let her know the kids were there. So we see if she shows up to see the kids. She hasnt seen them in 2 weeks so i do hope she shows up.
KD, i guess im asking if im taking the right approach here. Her world is falling apart around her and am i just being an as@ and making things worse. I keep telling myself its what needs to be done, and then i second guess it. I reason with myself and tell myself if i stay nice and continue doing these favors for her she will come around.
There have been a few times where i have actually had to stop myself from sending her an email of a facebook message. So far i have been able to remain strong and have not caved and contacted her, but when i dont contact her, the kids dont even get to talk with her. Im afraid that my choices are pushing her further away from me and the kids. That im her life line and as long as she has me, there might be a chance she will rise up out of the mess she is in. im really afraid she will regress again and back into the drugs. Which by the way she is off and gets tested weekly. She is putting weight back on and looking healthy. I just dont want to push her backwards.
