See this is the problem GM, I don't think this is a temp solution anymore. IT IS TEMPORARY...you are letting this man have all your power. Are you a believer in God? I don't recall but if you have a belief in Him or a higher power or a positive loving force in the universe, lean into that and let it start to heal you. Get help. You can always do yourself harm LATER but you can't take it back...
In my younger years, learning to deal with depression, I a really good at seeing through the fog.
This is the first time in my life where the other side is clearer than the present. so it's harder this time. We get it. Not fatal or eternal! REACH OUT THERE...right now...
The other side doens't hold hope or possibility. yes it does have hope and possibility. You are not able to SEE that now b/c you are not thinking straight...
It only shows my failure at being a good human being to a person who loved me from the bottom of his heart.
you are revising things too much now...another symptom of not thinking straight..YOU are NOT UNlovable!
It shows me a life that I really don't want anymore. I wish I could bestow my good health on someone who wants to live and die for that person.
You were given a healthy body and mind that is temporarily not functioning as well. You need medical help.
So, 111, get the help. It WILL help.
You WILL FEEL BETTER.
This pain is deep but it's going to end when you get the help. So get it!
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
