Okay well, I don't think very many people follow my sitch on here but I need to journel and get this out where people might just understand.
I am obsessing right now so badly and it's eating me up inside and I once again feel like taking a bottle of sleeping pills with some volka.
P said he didn't Skype me yesterday. What did pop up was a message he had sent me long ago. Both people need to be signed in to Skype for messages to appear and 'go through'. Well before I noticed that mess was old I replied "whats up?" to him and the message went through, yet it showed him as "offline"
So I did a Google search and it says that if the person is just online and invisible, thats why your messages go through. The person is actually getting them.
So this morning I found out how to do another 'test'. There is a way that you can try video calling them, which would not go through if they were actually were offline, but will if they are in 'stealth' mode. Well his went through. So he is on there.
The only other time he used to leave his Skype open was back when things were good with us, so we could leave little messages back and forth. (But never in invisible mode) So this means he is on there doing the same thing with OW.
It kills me. I f*cuking hate this. I am so hurt. I wrote him a mess on Skype and said:
"Skype is such a weird program 'cause even though you said you have not been on it for ages, it shows you online but invisible. If you feel like you need to hide from me on the net, I don't want you to have to feel that way. Just delete me from Skype, I will completely understand"
I guess it's good that we all find out about OW/OM, but in a way, I would really rather be blissfully unaware. If the net didn't exist, I would know nothing at this point. Unrealistically I imagine a time when that was possible.
