Bond - I didn't say anything about him being a sissy. What he is is unfaithful. I do want to save my M. I'm just having a hard time knowing that right now he's chosen to go elsewhere, and hasn't stopped even though I know now. Yes, it's partially my fault, and a bitter pill to swallow. I'm working on forgiveness. Most days I feel like I have forgiven him. Yesterday wasn't one of those days.
As far as the desperate comment. That was me feeling sorry for myself. It was/is a personal feeling I have, and has no bearing on anyone else's sitch.
