So you call him a sissy and find his mannerisms feminine now, etc. So do you want to save your M? You're in the early stages yet, so have alot of anger left. Believe me, I know the feeling.
"And what kind of person does it make me to still love him and want to work it out? Makes me feel desperate, and I don't like it. "
No it makes you a person of integrity and the ones with the greater strength. Are you saying that the rest of the LBSs here are desperate and pathetic?
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.