waiting for the tides to change

[BFloat]

here is the note my gf sent me. although it was written to me.. i feel that it could have been written to so many of us. my hope is that it gives inspiration to even just one person.. can you see yourself anywhere in here??



even if you don't feel as strong as you outwardly seem, the old adage "fake it til you make it" seems beneficial right now.

i didn't say this the other night, but you were talking about your kids and how they'll do, and how worried you are. i wanted to say, i'm not worried at all about your kids. they'll be fine - better than fine - because they have you for a mom. i'm not being sentimental when i say that. it's really true.

--, you are a total warrior. you always have been. it's one of the things i enjoy most about you. those kids have a bold, gentle, loving, educated and centred momma. you are a rock-solid foundation for them, whatever life throws their way.

i know single parenting isn't what you envisioned when you decided to start a family. it's not what anyone would wish for you. but quite apart from the kids and what the kids need, my hope for you is that, after all this mess has laid itself out and been mopped up again, you can find true happiness on the other side.

i believe you will.

you may feel like a shadow, but i am telling you, the true -- i know from childhood is coming through loud and clear these days. much clearer than over the past few years.

what can i say? i'm sorry this all happened. i can't imagine how devastating it must be to be in the middle of it. you don't deserve any of it. i'm glad your sister and mom are close by.

and at the same time, i'm also glad you 're not in a marriage that dulls you, or undermines you, or saps your strength. i'm sure that you'd trade those things for a stable and complete family life. as your friend, though, for your sake, it's great to see your spark back.