Getting Better??

[irishblessings]

OK - will try this again:/ - here is X's email from today:

...feel completely terrible for the pain and heartache I have caused everyone. I have still not found the peace and happiness for which I strive but continue to try to figure that out and attempt to make gains in that direction every day. Two steps forward and one step back is huge progress…Thank you again for all of this and trying to make everything work to the best of your ability. I know that if I had it to do over or by myself that the end results may not have turned out any differently, one way or the other. I’m sure I will see you at the game tonight and will share in your pride of our awesome son and wonderful daughters.

So I get this message earlier in the day. He shows up at son's game with OW (she hasn't been to the last couple of games). She has the lowest cut shirt on I've ever seen. Ugh!

Anyway - and I know I should not care - but how do I interpret the comment: "if I had to do over or by myself that the end results may not have turned out any differently, one way or the other. "

I don't understand it and maybe I shouldn't even try to make sense of crazy!