Texted W a simple "night" before bed tonight (becuase she said I don't care the other day I offered a simple form of reassurance). She immediatley texted back for me to stop. She continued with some very hurtful words in text. I then called her so she understood what I was saying. She got worse. She says ten years of "hell" precludes us ever getting back together - "Just sign the papers and get this over with". "I don't buy it" she says. "I do not nor will I ever trust you". "I left a year ago and I should have never married you". "Ten years of my life wasted on you and your depression, etc.." "I am very happy without you in my life".
No more hope. It is postively too late. I feel like a total sh!t - I caused this. I HAVE lost the love of my life. All of you have been great - pragmatic, honest, etc... That put me in a good place the last couple of days. Talking to her minutes ago erases all of that. I think DB does work for some folks - just not in my sitch. With great and profound regret I have to accept this turd sandwich for what it is and move on. I will always have a place in my heart for the memory of my wife, but she is gone now and nothing is going to change that. Wish I could temporarily die if that makes sense? Just sooo tired and exhausted after hoping and caring - all for not.
Me: 44 Bomb: 11/27/11 Divorced:6/12 Life goes on: 6/13
