It's definitely important to not get our hopes up over the small glimmers of hope. I believe that your H is confused, though he seems so firm in his choice, and because of his confusion he will do and say things once in a while that have the potential to get your hopes up. Detach! It is truly essential to detach so that you're not hung up on his every word/move. I do wish your H didn't feel like he could come to your home whenever he wants. He needs to FEEL that he can't have you/his family at the drop of a hat. Remember how J started acting a few days ago after feeling me truly detach from him? You can do it!
As for your 180, I think that was a good move, regardless of the fact that it irks me that he can come and go as he wants. You are growing and changing I was the same way with J. I wouldn't really pay attention if it was something I wasn't interested in. I listen to him much more intently now, and he has noticed and commented on it (after he noticed that I had detached...before that he wouldn't have really cared because he wasn't fearing losing me).
What are you doing for yourself tonight? I am eating my delicious Lemon & Triple Ginger ice cream (Trader Joe's) and will soon be putting the kids to bed. Then I'm going to watch a movie or two and chat with a girlfriend on the phone Hope you find something to do that brings a smile to your pretty face!
M & H 25 T 9 D 7 S 4 Bomb 11/11 Confused about feelings for me. Bomb 12/11 ILYBNILWY, moved out 2-1-12 We're exclusive & dating each other. 3-4-12 H moved back in. 3-31-12 I deserve better. I'm done