I guess I need to keep things in perspective and look on the bright side. I'm greatful that we have become better friends and I do appreciate the fact that we hug once or twice a week. Of course I hope for more most of the time but I will remain patient and wait for her to open up or let me know otherwise.
My bottom line goal is for myself and her to be happy as possible whether it is together M or together as friends or something entirely different. Sometimes it's hard to maintain that focus when emotions are running wild.
I have mentioned to her previously that she should get away for a while but at this time I think I want her to make that decision.
Definitely something I can consider thinking about further.
Also, W called earlier to check on our 2 ailing kids and I actually didn't even want to speak to her, still trying to figure out why I was feeling that way. In any event I told her they were ok and at the end of the call she asked if something was wrong w/ me as I seem to be a little frustrated or something. I didn't really like the way she said it as it seemed like she was baiting me into something but I just said I'm good, maybe a little tired. I knew that if I went any further about how its been a rough couple of days w/ sick kids she would of spun it into something.
Anyhow, went out to dinner w/ my boys and my mom and had a great time.
