Ugh, perhaps I am being pouty, WCW. He's never firm on when he's coming home, so I do feel a little irritated when it changes at the last moment. D19 was a tad disappointed, but she's used to him changing his schedule. I don't wish or not wish anything .... noooo expectations here. I have no illusion about how my weekend will be like ... as usual, I will be entertaining myself, unless he's awake then I might get to go to a movie. I'm not too concerned. I don't go around moping about an absent H ... this is where I allow myself to vent.
On a positive note ... a creative writing piece of mine has been chosen for our uni annual literary magazine. I am so pleased. Yay! I am allowing me to pat myself on my back.
Being Me, I think you are what I call a passive stander. I say this because you talk about leaving, doing other things, etc. but when it comes time, you always have something that keeps you from going for 6 months or so, then its something else. At the same time you exhibit disappointment when he doesn't do what you want him to and you make statements like "you can just not come home", then when he asks if that's what you want, you back track. Being Me, I'm not saying any of this to put you down, I really think you need to make your mind up for what YOU want. If you want to stay, I think you need to make some changes. You are as predictable as the sun coming up in the morning, and your H knows it. Next time he comes home, try staying out really late, like 2 or 3 in the morning, even if its at a McDonalds having coffee. Make him take a cab home from the airport, don't answer your cell phone. When you get home and he wants to know where you were, just say I was out. Its not a lie, but he's wondering. Get up the next morning and take off. Make his mind start wondering a bit. Nothing is going to change until you make some changes and he is more than happy with the status que.
He's never firm on when he's coming home, so I do feel a little irritated when it changes at the last moment. D19 was a tad disappointed, but she's used to him changing his schedule. I don't wish or not wish anything .... noooo expectations here. I have no illusion about how my weekend will be like ... as usual, I will be entertaining myself, unless he's awake then I might get to go to a movie. I'm not too concerned. I don't go around moping about an absent H ... this is where I allow myself to vent. 
